My Secret Pain – the Call of Beloved Partnership

It is said that “the truth shall set you free.” I have continued to find this to be true.  But knowing that in expressing our truth we shall find freedom and actually expressing our truth are two different things, especially when expressing those truths leaves you naked and vulnerable in the face of an often cold and cruel world.  But, it is also said, “No pain, no gain.”  So……here goes.

I have a truth that I have carefully guarded and kept very close to my heart, revealing this secret to only a select few. The truth is that I am called to Beloved Partnership.

Click on the image above to read about Mary Magdalene and the call to Beloved Partnership.

What I have come to understand is that being called to Beloved Partnership is a Divine calling and one that cannot be fulfilled until we are reunited with our other half. Being a Beloved Partner differs from co-dependency in that it is not about looking for someone to complete us.  Instead, it is about a shared energy that compels both to seek after their own wholeness, spiritually igniting each other in mutual and shared growth until they reach the point when they are meant to come together in Divine and Holy Partnership – the kind of partnership that is Divinely ordained and which no one can tear asunder.

I am a Beloved Partner and on some level, I have known this my whole life. Since my earliest memory, I have known what my Beloved feels like.  I have felt/known his presence around me.  I have heard him calling me and have experienced the promise of our union.  I have looked for him and thought I had found him in others, only and always learning that “this is not him.”  (That is not to say there hasn’t been value in all the relationships that in the end proved not to be my Twin.)

Until 2004-ish, my Beloved has only been known to me in the energy of promise and potential. I had an idea in my head and a sense of what should be, but nothing concrete to base it on.  Then came the vision that CHANGED MY LIFE.  In short – I SAW HIM!  I saw him and I felt him.  More importantly, I experienced what it feels like to be in his presence and to have him look into my eyes.  The experience was one of pure adoration and love – the likes of which I had never experienced before.

For 13 years, I have carried this experience with me, allowing it to guide and direct my life. It started with looking for this love outside of me.  When these efforts proved fruitless, I sought this love in God which then brought me into myself.  I have diligently tended to the unhealed wounds and unacknowledged fears within me that have been blocking my ability to know the love that I am as a child of the Divine – all the while feeling and knowing the presence of “My Beloved” in this journey with me.

Doesn’t that sound lovely? I see/feel the experience of being adored.  It compels me on a profound journey of personal growth.  It helps to lead me in the direction of my life purpose.  But….the truth is that the journey of Beloved Partnership SUCKS!  It sucks BAD….and here’s why.

Think of it this way. How many people do you know who are happy and content in a “just ok” relationship because it feels safe, secure, known, etc.  Alternatively, how many people do you know who are happy just dating and sleeping around – enjoying the play of a casual relationship without any of the responsibility?  Beloved Partners cannot do any of these thing!  None of these paths have been an option for me and when I have tried, I have gotten my ass handed to me.  With the calling of a Beloved Partnership, I have learned I can be content with nothing but this.

Here then is the rub: For one called to Beloved Partnership, until that partnership is realized, there will always be a feeling of discontent, a deep feeling that there is something very wrong with our lives, and our Divine calling will not be completely fulfilled.  When the Divine calling is not fulfilled, we are left with a nagging feeling of frustration, impatience, even anger and resentment of that something that is missing from our lives.

Here is the other rub: there is literally NOTHING we can do about what is “wrong” with our lives.  Oh yes, there are all kinds of books and courses on how to “call in the one,” but in my experience none of these work.  Yes, we can prepare a space for our Beloved.  Yes, we can do the critical work of healing our woundedness and becoming whole within ourselves.  We can go out there and try on different relationship experiences.  But at the end of the day, the arrival of our Beloved, as it is Divine ordained, is simply a matter of Divine timing.  In the meantime, we are left with an aching pain of vacancy in the center of our Soul where the knowledge of our calling to Beloved Partnership resides, along with the pain of knowing that until we are united there will be a critical part of our Soul’s purpose that cannot be fulfilled.

While there is nothing we can do to make reunion with our Beloved happen, we can create a space in our lives by working on our own journey toward wholeness. My book, Happily Ever After, is one resource to help support you in this task. 

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Celebrating Mary Magdalene

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Mary Magdalene is the only one identified to have completed the full course of Jesus’ teachings and was initiated as co-equal partner and Beloved with Christ. It was to Mary whom Jesus first revealed his resurrected/Christed Self and it was Mary he commissioned to share the good news with the other disciples and who he ordained to continue his work in his stead.

The Feast of Mary Magdalene is celebrated on July 22nd every year and in honor of her coming feast day, we have many exciting offerings to share with you:

LIVE online Course starting July 31:

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FREE Feast of the Magdalene Service:

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Magdalene Mini-Summit with Lauri Lumby, Renee Starr and other experts on the Magdalene:

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Being a Catalyst

The Plight of the Sh.t-Disturber

I recently posted an article To See or Not to See – That is the Question, exploring the gift of spiritual sight.  There is one challenge with this gift I neglected to mention:

The ability to see all the way to people’s (and organizations’) truest and most authentic selves and the potential that lay within them for a meaningful, purposeful and fulfilling life.

I see who they are meant to be behind all the masks they show to the world along who they came into this world to be behind all the unhealed wounds and unacknowledged fears that keep them imprisoned in an unfulfilling, unrewarding life.

Along with this ability, is the very real experience that happens when I see someone in this way – they begin to wake up. The very fact that I can see them….really see them, stirs something within them that knows they are not living as their most authentic self, that they are not being who they came into this world to be.  Call it guilt, or shame, or a feeling we don’t yet have a word for – something stirs in them – a kind of discomfort that they somehow recognize came from me, through me or because of me.  Some people are excited to feel this experience of awakening and are glad for being seen so they can begin to acknowledge and unleash their true selves.  Others – not so much.  Not everyone wants to be seen and certainly not everyone wants to do the REALLY HARD work of becoming their true selves.  For the former, I am a welcome source of support.  For the latter, I often become the enemy.

I will wholeheartedly admit that the latter experience has been a source of pain for me. This has been especially true in close relationships as well as in EVERY SINGLE work or academic institution I have been connected with.  I show up and sh.t starts happening.  The lies, the falsehoods, deceptions, misguided motivations, compulsions and attachments all begin to show themselves.  While this is happening, I’m being shown all the resources of support that would benefit their healing and the realization of their truest most authentic self.  I suggest these supports which are either met with blank stares and deaf ears or outright condemnation and rejection.  At this point, the relationship is now in question and I am either forced to leave or I decide to leave on my own.  It is difficult, if not impossible, to remain in a place where our gifts are not welcome.  At this point all I can do is sit and watch as the house of cards they have built for and around themselves comes tumbling down.

The opposite, however, is true of those who are excited and grateful to be seen and who want to pursue a purposeful and fulfilling life reflective of their own unique gifts and passions. These are the people and institutions in whom my gifts find their fulfillment, resulting in a co-creative dynamic of receptivity and openness where they are liberated from the inner wounds and fears which might otherwise keep them from living as their most authentic selves.  It is a beautiful thing to behold and it is because of these people that I continue to do what I do in spite of those who want to hate me for my gifts.  (PS  They don’t really hate me, they hate themselves for refusing their own truth.)

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Will the Real Mary Magdalene Please Stand Up?

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In the forty years (or so) that I have been working with Mary Magdalene I have come across at least a million different theories about who she was/is, what her life looked like, where she lived, who she slept with and who her children might be. In the twenty years (or so) that I have been actively studying and researching the Magdalene, I have read at least a hundred books specifically dedicated to her which also bears their own theories of the Magdalene. Some call her an Ascended Master, others an Essene High Priestess, others a prostitute, others an adulterous woman, others the Sang Grael and the mother of a dynasty of European kings and queens (Jesus’ own progeny), and some claim her as a goddess.  Most of these books are based entirely on theory, oral legend or claim to have been “directly channeled” from the Magdalene herself.

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Resurrecting and Restoring the Divine Masculine

The purpose of this course is to provide a platform and a guide for those interested in reclaiming the unrealized Divine Masculine that already dwells within them. In this, we discard the Unholy Masculine which is rooted in fear, power and control, and resurrect the loving provision and protection that brings balance and wholeness to us all.

7 self-guided, online lessons centered on experiential and embodied learning.

Knowledge based lessons integrated with mindfulness and creativity based activities.

Reflection and optional discussion.

For people of all genders

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Created and Facilitated by Lauri Ann Lumby, OM, OPM, MATS

 

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The Divine Masculine is the power within us to be a source of loving provision and protection for ourselves and for those in our care.  The Divine Masculine is part of our original nature as men and women who have been created in the image of the Divine. While we have been conditioned to think of the masculine as strictly related to male, the Divine Masculine is inherent within all of us regardless of our gender identification.   When the Divine Masculine is fully embodied, the qualities that we have been conditioned to think of as the positive qualities in men, emerge out of all of us – qualities related to action, provision, protection, setting boundaries, getting needs met, and building (to name a few).  Under the reign of the Divine Masculine and the Divine Feminine, humanity thrives – moving toward our original state which is one of peace, contentment and joy where we live in harmony with one another in beloved partnership and cooperative engagement.

Unfortunately, the Divine Masculine (along with the Divine Feminine) has been sorely missing in our world.  Between 5,000 and 10,000 years ago (depending on whose theory you subscribe to), humanity experienced a dramatic change in our societal constructs. In this, the Divine within all of us was supplanted by the unholy aspects of our human nature.  Fear took hold and with it the Unholy Masculine and the Unholy Feminine were born.

The Unholy Masculine arises out of and conditions us through fear. It creates oppressive behavioral patterns and institutional structures, while building hierarchies which privilege one (race, gender, sexual orientation, religion, economic status, etc.) over another.  Under the reign of the Unholy Masculine the majority suffer.  The only ones who benefit from that which arises out of the Unholy Masculine are the few who have placed themselves in positions of power.

The Unholy Feminine is powerless in the face of the power of the Unholy Masculine, resulting in either manipulative, deceitful, or victim behaviors used as a way to try to regain that power. Again, this Unholy Feminine is present within all of us, regardless of our gender identification.

The Authentic Jesus as an historical example of the Divine Masculine.

Artist: Lewis Williams, OSF

In this course we turn to the Western model of the Divine Masculine as it was lived out through Jesus of Nazareth who became Christ.  Piercing through the religious dogma and doctrine that has imprisoned Jesus’ message of love, partnership and equality, we find the original Jesus – a human being who came to know and understand his true Divine nature, thus embodying his full divinity (masculine and feminine). In doing so, he became both fully Divine and fully human, the ultimate intention of the human experience.  To use the language of modern psychology, Jesus became self-actualized – knowing who he was, what his gifts were, and how he was called to share these gifts. He was able to live for the sake of his own fulfillment and in service to the betterment of the world.  Jesus then sought to guide his disciples in doing the same.

Mary, called Magdalene, is the only one of Jesus’ disciples who was said to have completed this process of initiation (“healed of seven demons”), applying Jesus’ example and teachings, and becoming fully self-actualized herself.  Here, Mary (Magdalene) becomes the model of the Divine Feminine.

But more than this, Jesus and Mary together provide the example of the Divine Masculine and the Divine Feminine as present, integrated and fully embodied within all of humanity.

This is our goal – to follow the example set forth by Jesus and then fulfilled through Mary Magdalene – to create an opportunity to welcome the Divine Feminine and the Divine Masculine within us and to embody them fully in our lives.  In this, we realize our full Divine nature as present within our human form and here we find peace – not only for ourselves, but for all of humanity.  It is here that we become “the change we want to see in the world.”

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Listening for the Father’s Voice – Exploring the Divine Masculine

Please enjoy this creative dialog between myself, Tom and Pastor Mike Clute, where we explore the Divine Masculine and the Father’s Voice.  Access recording here:

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“Towards an Ecology of We” 

 Thomas Clute, MSW

 Sacred Personhood Researcher and Explorer

tomcluteconsulting (at) gmail.com

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To See or Not to See – That is the Question!

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For my entire life I’ve been able to see. As it turns out, this gift of sight began even before my birth when I was given a vision of what this life would look like and my fetal self said, “Hell-no, I won’t go!” and turned tail and ran.  “Thanks” to a team of surgeons and some good old fashioned ether, my tiny body was wrested from my mother’s womb, yanked out by my left foot as I clung helplessly to my mother’s pelvis, “No mommy!  Please don’t make me go!”

My cries were in vain as I was yanked from the soft, warm hiding place of my mother’s womb into the glaring light of the surgical theatre, my furrowed brow meeting the blurry gaze of the surgeon, anesthesiologist, nurses and the gallery of medical students peering back in rapt wonder over the first and likely last feet first vaginal…

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The Spiritual Law of Manifesting

As we believe, so shall it be.

 In the popular book The Secret, and all the related pop-culture myths on manifestation, it is said that our thought governs our ability to get what we want.  In other words, “If we want something, all we need to do is think the right thoughts.”  In this mythology, the opposite is also true, “If you are not getting what you want, it is because you have thought the wrong thoughts.”

While there may be some truth to these myths in causal (3D/duality) consciousness, in the world of Unity Consciousness none of this is true. If you are already living in Unity consciousness (or at the least, holding the intention to live from a place of Oneness), if we even try to think our way into manifesting, it will fail and likely blow up in our face.

In Unity consciousness, manifesting what we want isn’t even the question and thought has nothing to do with it.  Instead, manifesting in Unity consciousness is about a process of emptying, being guided, believing, allowing, taking action where needed,  and receiving.

First we have to be emptied of all perceptions and belief systems rooted in the false perception of separation. Most importantly, we have to be healed of all the inner wounds and fears that keep us from remembering our original nature as One with that which some might call “God,” One with ourselves, one with each other and one with all creation.

Then, from this place of intimate connection with Source/our Higher self, we free ourselves of our own plans, ideas, strategies, agendas, itineraries, need to know and to control and be open instead to Higher Guidance – the place where truth resides. We have to receive this truth and believe it no matter how startling, counter-cultural, life-altering it might be.

And then, we have to believe. Belief, I have learned is the key to manifesting the guidance we receive from that place of intimate connection with Source.  As we believe it, so shall it be.  This belief starts with perception.  How do we judge the circumstances of our life and the world around us?  If we believe that what we are seeing is negative and will lead to our destruction, then it will.  If we believe that what we are seeing from a higher perspective, from the Divine perspective colored by love, then we will trust that it will unfold in our highest good (even if what is happening includes a loss, a failure or a disappointment.)  Once we learn to guide our perception to the highest good, then we have faith and trust that all roads are leading to the fulfillment of the guidance we first received.  As we believe it to be, it shall be so.  Then, we allow the natural unfolding of this manifestation and we are open and willing to receive all we need for this dream to be made manifest. And if there is action to be taken on our part, the revelation and guidance of this comes, again, from this place of Oneness.

Emptying. Accepting Guidance.  Believing.  Allowing.  Taking Action when guided.  Receiving.

Let me offer a concrete example of this as I have witnessed it in the Catholic Church of my youth. Every day, while presiding over the mass, the priest takes a simple glass of wine and a plate of unleavened bread (or communion wafers), says a few words and prayers over them and viola, they are suddenly transformed into the body and blood of Christ.  Yes, the appearance of the bread and wine remain, but the substance has been transformed (transubstantiation) into the body and blood of Christ.  This transformation doesn’t not happen because the priest performed the “Jesus magic,” (though that is likely what some Catholics believe); it is because he and the people BELIEVE that the bread and wine have now been transformed so that they may receive the Presence of Christ in consuming the bread and the wine.

  • Emptying so the will of the Divine can be fulfilled.
  • Believing in the guidance and the manifestation of that guidance.
  • Allowing it to be done through us.
  • Taking action where guided.
  • Receiving the manifestation of the Divine guidance.

And the bottom line: As we believe, so shall it be.

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The Truth about Mary Magdalene – Hiding in Plain Sight!

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This morning while preparing my weekly Temple of the Magdalene subscription newsletter, I came upon a momentous discovery! For 2000 years, the Church has known that it was Mary Magdalene that Jesus ordained to lead his disciples in continuing the work that he began and which he called them to complete.  It has also known that it was Mary, not Peter, who was called to lead “the church” which was comprised of all those who were open to believing the Love that Jesus came to know and sought to bring forth in our world.

For 2000 years it has been Mary Magdalene all along, the Church has simply tried to hide this truth from us, eventually denigrating Mary Magdalene (and all women with her) to the status of prostitute and whore and through centuries of subjugation, condemnation and even execution, the Church has deprived women of the very role…

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Withholding Our Gifts

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I had an interesting interaction yesterday with an organization whose materials I have recommended to my students, specifically as supplemental resources (for purchase) in the What’s Your Magiccourse that is part of my Magdalene Priestess Training.  Apparently, they are no longer willing to share these resources with those outside their institutional membership – even when they stand to benefit financially for in sharing these resources.  When I inquired further and explained why I appreciate their resources, why I recommend them to my students, why my student’s would not be candidates for membership in their organization and why I would like to continue to share these resources (which would be a financial benefit to their organization), their response was “Best wishes to you.”

To say I was disappointed would be an understatement – not because my students would suffer for lack of these resources (which they won’t), but because the…

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