The closer we move toward our Soul’s purpose, the harder the “devil” works against us. I don’t mean the dude in the red tights with horns carrying a pitchfork who is really the Christian appropriation and demonizing of the pagan fertility god. I mean the “devil” that resides within all of us. Another name for this devil is the ego or false self. Or as identified by our Hebrew ancestors – satan, meaning inner adversary, or from the Latin Lucifer, meaning light-bearer.
There is great wisdom in acknowledging this inner adversary as a light-bearer, as it is most often in our darkness where we discover our light. That is, when we have the courage to face the darkness and be present with and in it so that the light can be revealed. For the devil isn’t here to tempt us, though tempted we will be, the devil is here to help us grow.
Growth doesn’t come without challenge or pain. Ask the sunflower or the oak tree what obstacles they had to move through becoming their most fulfilled and fruitful self. The same is true for us. When we awaken from our human slumber and realize that the things “out there” are not providing us with fulfillment, peace or joy, we turn our gaze inward. As we turn that gaze within, we discover all kinds of unhealed wounds from our past, unacknowledged fears, unrealized dreams. If we are courageous, (or if life leaves us with no other option) we then embark upon the deep soul work of bringing all these areas of inner darkness to the light so that they can be healed and transformed, finding within this transformation the treasure in the darkness. This is what brings us toward our soul’s purpose and the life of meaning and fulfillment that we all long for and that our Soul intends for us to experience in this human experiment. It is ultimately the Soul’s longing to be fulfilled that brings us to this task.
The “devil” in this journey is the inner vehicle that brings all of our fears and unhealed wounds to light. It is our job to recognize these fears as they arise and take responsibility for these fears. Most often, these fears arise in us due to outside triggers. Something or someone shows up in our path reflecting our fears. Maybe it is the stack of unpaid bills on your desk. Maybe it is someone seemingly accomplishing something you wish you could do. Perhaps it shows up in an infringement of boundaries, or in the form of rejection. However it shows up, we can know an unhealed wound or unacknowledged fear has been triggered by the reaction we experience in our bodies. Perhaps the hair stands up on the back of your neck, or your belly constricts, or you feel the hot pain of rage boiling up in you.
Whatever that inner reaction might be….DO NOT ACT. Instead, recognize it for what it is – the devil, Lucifer – showing up to reveal to you your unhealed fears.
Then….NAME the fear for what it is – fear of lack, fear of your own insignificance, fear of powerlessness, fear of not being loved, fear of not being able to express your truth, fear of not knowing your truth, fear of being alone. NAME the demon, and it no longer has power over you.
LOVE that fear. Sit in the discomfort of the fear. Hold it in love. In being with it and holding it, the fear gets what it has always needed, to be acknowledged and loved. And then the fear is transformed and we are now free of that face of our fear.
THANK the fear. Thank Lucifer, the devil, satan, the ego, the false-self, whatever you want to call it, for helping you to grow and helping you to take one step closer to the life you came here to enjoy – one of contentment, joy, fulfillment and love.