For many I know, including myself, this has been a very trying time. It has been a time of uncertainty, anxiety and fear. The world “out there” is a disaster. Natural disasters, pipeline explosions, terrorist bombings, the clown show we used to call our presidential elections, the stock(stark) market is just that….stark, and horror of all horrors, Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie are getting divorced.
While the world “out there” grapples with its death, we are wrestling with our own. The death we are facing is not our literal physical death (though that is the struggle for many), it is the death of all that we have known and all that we thought we knew about ourselves. The old world is dying and the way in which we have functioned in that old world is no longer useful. More importantly, we cannot be who we were for a world that is no longer because we need to become who we ARE for the new world that is about to arise out of the rubble.
As we are facing the death of self, all our old fears, insecurities, wounds, past hurts, betrayals, etc. are showing themselves. They are showing themselves so as to be witnessed, felt, acknowledged and thanked (yes, I said “thanked”) so that they can MOVE ON. In order to allow this transition, this “moving on,” we have to BE WITH our darkness. We need to wallow in it. We need to bathe in it. We need to feel the excruciating pain of LACK so that we can finally LET IT GO. This is not the time for “thinking different thoughts” so that we can rise beyond the SH.T and see it only as light. This is a time to ACKNOWLEDGE the darkness and BE WITH IT. Remember, “that which we resist will persist.” It is the same with our darkness. If we pretend it’s not there, deny it, ignore it, chant words of affirmation and goodness trying to make it light instead of the dark, dank, moldering, smoldering pile of crap it is, that pile of crap will simply get bigger.
Be with the darkness. Get really pissed off. Rant, rave, vent, tear your hair out, rip your clothing, break some dishes, be angry. You earned it! You have paid long and hard for the work you came here to do. You’ve suffered. You’ve been poor. You’ve been made an outcast, condemned as a witch, ridiculed for the love you came to be in the world. Welcome the darkness you are feeling now. Thank it for all it has taught you (compassion, understanding, the desire to help another, humility, mercy, tenderness, love). And then, let it thank you in return as it departs, itself dying with the “out there” world, along with the role you have played for that dying world.
Then wait. Your new Self is waiting to be born, the Self that will usher you into the new world in which you will be living and your Divine purpose in that new world.
For further support in dark times, read my blog Light Workers, Shadow Workers and Middle-World Workers, and check out my new online course The Dark Goddess in the Bible (click on image below to learn more).