So, how did you fare through the past week’s Heave-Ho into the new world? If your week was anything like mine, you experienced both the heights of ecstasy along with the depths of despair. While many were hopeful for an immediate entry into, and experience of, the new world, most of us were either disappointed and/or caught unaware by the backlash that often comes with periods of rapid delivery.
There can be no doubt about it – with the conclusion of the full blood moon lunar eclipse and the culmination of Wave X, WE ARE CHANGED. We have indeed crossed the threshold from 3D (separation consciousness) into 5D (unity consciousness). The challenge, however, for most, is that (as we often forget), when we make such enormous leaps toward God(oneness), the small self fights back and the trickster raises its ugly (only when we judge it as such) head. The trickster/small self shows up to challenge us, “Are you sure this is what you really want? Wouldn’t you be more comfortable staying where you are with the fears and compulsions with which you have become so familiar?????” And then, trickster shows up AS these compulsions.
Fear. Judgment. Self-doubt. Self-loathing. Anxiety. Depression. Envy. Rage.
For me, this is exactly how the trickster showed up, in dramatic contrast to the TRUE miracles that unfolded in the past week: – VERY generous donations to the house-buying campaign; miracles happening in the lives of every one of my clients, students, readers; witnessing the true growth of my business; fantastic insights and personal growth in the “Create As Love” course I’m taking with Lauren Gorgo; a shamanic journey that showed me the TRUTH of our ONENESS with God (more on this later). These were the miracles.
Then the trickster showed up in: worries about money; self-doubt and bargaining; computer glitches that made me step aside from technology for a few days; and the biggest trickster of all – NAY-SAYERS. One after another after another person showed up questioning, challenging, doubting, staring blankly in the face of my vision, mission, and the decisions I’ve made in order to uphold the vision that is planted in my heart. Most pointedly, trickster showing up telling me all the ways I’ve done it WRONG and that perhaps I should throw in the towel and get “a real” job. Hah – that old story!!
The trickster, showing up in the bodies of others, but ultimately reflecting back to me my own:
Fear. Judgment. Self-doubt. Self-loathing. Anxiety.
But you see, I KNOW what I am here to do. I KNOW my mission and purpose in this life. I KNOW I’m damn good at what I do. AND every time I think about or even try to “get a real job” the Universe puts up one obstacle after another and then plunges me into the depths of desolation (which Ignatius of Loyola recognized as the energy of the adversary). Indeed, in order to accomplish this mission, I have had to do things in a very non-3D way – taking great leaps of faith and going against societal, financial, tribal “shoulds” in order to support this mission. To one with 3D (fearful) eyes, the choices I have made might look strange, if not a little insane. To 5D (oneness) eyes, there is no judgment – only what had to be done in a fearful world to help bring forth a new world of LOVE. In order to bring forth the “unconventional” world of love, unconventional tactics have had to be employed.
So, the trickster showed up to give me an opportunity to retreat into my small-self (fear), or strengthen my resolve in the mission of my Soul.
If you are reading this blog, you too have been gifted with the same idea of a mission and purpose for you in this life. Likely, you feel deep in your heart a desire to help BRING ABOUT A NEW WORLD. You have grown tired of a world ruled by fear, power and control. You are exhausted by all the things in the world that cause us to do harm to ourselves and to one another. You are frustrated and tired of the struggle that the majority of humanity faces just to put food on their tables and a roof over their head. You long for a different kind of world:
- A world in which people are loving toward themselves and toward one another.
- A world in which the needs for food, clothing, shelter, education and healthcare are satisfied for all.
- A world in which people are acknowledged for their own unique giftedness and then nurtured and empowered in the use of these gifts because we know that the world becomes a better place when all are fulfilled in their gifts and empowered to use them.
- A world where all people are treated with dignity and respect and where we honor each other in our respective beliefs and the choices we make that fulfill the deeper longing in our hearts.
- A world where violence is rare and peaceful collaboration and cooperation are the rule.
- A world where love rules and where fear is recognized as a cry for help and appropriate healing methods employed.
This is the world that you came to help humanity build. You too have been told you were crazy for dreaming dreams of a better world and for wanting to do something about it. The good news is that you are not alone and that WE have now reached critical mass and our voices, while still somewhat quiet, are becoming the majority, if they weren’t already. We long for a NEW WORLD built on love and one that seeks to HEAL the fear that has kept us imprisoned for 10,000 years!
So, if the nay-sayers show up in your life as you are in the midst of entertaining or working for your dreams – recognize them for who they are – your small self trying to remain small and showing up in both people outside of you and in all the voices in your head that say, “You can’t do that,” and then make a choice. Choose to stay small and afraid, or heed the voice of your SOUL that says, “YOU ARE SO BIG because you are made of LOVE and love is infinite.” And then PLEASE be your BIG self, because the WORLD NEEDS YOU!