Yesterday I posted a preview of this week’s Agape’ Meditation newsletter – supplement to the Authentic Freedom Virtual Church. Find continuation below of the conversation about longing and how it is our Divine Parents’ way of helping us remember and find our way home.
Sunday, November 30, 2014
First Sunday Advent
You, LORD, are our father, our redeemer you are named forever. Why do you let us wander, O LORD, from your ways, and harden our hearts so that we fear you not? Return for the sake of your servants, the tribes of your heritage. Oh, that you would rend the heavens and come down, with the mountains quaking before you, while you wrought awesome deeds we could not hope for, such as they had not heard of from of old. No ear has ever heard, no eye ever seen, any God but you doing such deeds for those who wait for him. Would that you might meet us doing right, that we were mindful of you in our ways! Behold, you are angry, and we are sinful; all of us have become like unclean people, all our good deeds are like polluted rags; we have all withered like leaves, and our guilt carries us away like the wind. There is none who calls upon your name, who rouses himself to cling to you; for you have hidden your face from us and have delivered us up to our guilt. Yet, O LORD, you are our father; we are the clay and you the potter: we are all the work of your hands.
Is 63: 16b-17, 19b; 64: 2-7
Ps 80: 2-3, 15-16, 18-19
1 Cor 1: 3-9
Mk 13: 33-37
Longing for God
“Why do you let us wander, O LORD, from your ways?”
Once upon a time, there were Divine loving parents, Father and Mother. They created a universe filled with their children, made in their own likeness. In the Presence of the Father and the Mother, these children knew nothing but love, happiness and bliss. Then one day, some of the children realized that in order to grow and mature, they would need to know what life would be like without the Presence of the Father and the Mother. So, these children asked their Divine parents for permission to move away from them – to go off by themselves and experience life without the Presence of their Divine Parents. Mother and Father knew exploration would cause their children great anguish, pain and suffering, but also knew that in order to grow, they needed this time of separation, so the Parents agreed. The children then went off on their own to explore the world separated from the Presence of their Divine and loving Parents. Father and Mother, however, did not send the children off completely alone. Instead, they planted within the heart of each of their children the seed of remembrance. Contained within this seed was the memory of their original home as one in love with their Divine Parents, sisters and brothers. Father and Mother hoped that one day, this seed of remembrance would awaken and lead their children home.
The children, then, went off to experience life as separate from their Divine origins. As was anticipated, this experience caused the Divine children much pain and suffering. The children felt as if they were lost, abandoned and alone. For the first time, they experience fear which then led to anger, resentment, jealousy, covetousness, lust for power, insecurity, loneliness and despair. The children of God, out of their fear, began to create separation from each other, making war, destroying the world Father and Mother had given them, condemning others as different and unacceptable. The world they created apart from their Father and Mother became a world of great darkness. As the years went by, the children grew more and more restless and more and more afraid.
All this while, the seed of remembrance rested within the hearts of the Divine children. In all of the Divine children, this seed felt to them like a thorn or a sliver trying to find its way out. This seed created within each of the Divine children, a deep longing – a longing that could not be named, but a longing nonetheless. Many ignored this longing or tried to silence its efforts through self-numbing behaviors – excessive food, drink, accumulation of possessions, power and control over others, etc. Others, heard this longing and punished themselves, falling deeper and deeper in despair. Others, felt this longing and instead of resisting it or succumbing to its darkness, decided to LISTEN. In this listening, the Divine children heard the voice of Father and Mother calling them home.
How have you experienced the seed of remembrance and come to know its longing?
How have you taken time to be present to this longing, allowing it to guide your way home?
Spiritual Practices – Connecting with the Seed of Remembrance
Sit in silence.
Draw your awareness into your heart.
Breathe deeply and with intention.
Draw your intentional breath into your heart.
Continue to hold your attention on your heart as you breathe.
Become aware in the center of your heart of a place of deep longing. It may present itself as a feeling of anxiousness, nervousness or fear.
Do not resist the anxiety, instead, love it and in loving it, move through it.
Behind the anxiety, you will find the longing. At first, it may feel painful, like something you don’t want to touch or go into or toward.
Resist the temptation to avoid this pain, instead, love it and in loving it, move through it.
Continue drawing deeper and deeper toward the longing. The closer you get to the longing, the closer you will be to the Real Presence of God. If you start weeping, you will know you are there.
Allow yourself to collapse into the Presence of God. Feel the Father and the Mother’s overwhelming love for you.
Allow yourself to receive, to remember and to know this love.
In Authentic Freedom, the goal is to find our way through and transcend the core spiritual wound – the false perception of separation from God. This core wound is wrapped up in the seed of remembrance and is initially experienced within us as impatience, frustration and restlessness. These feelings cause us to seek – to seek something beyond the life experience we are currently living in. These feelings are, in truth, the quiet voice of God calling us home. Ronald Rollheiser, a Christian theologian, calls this experience Holy Longing. As we allow ourselves to BE STILL and sit with this inner longing, we remember the truth of our Oneness with God and we experience this oneness in peace, love and joy.
How are you setting time aside in your daily life to tend to the voice of your longing?
How are you avoiding this longing by filling your life with busy, meaningless activity?
What are the fears that might be keeping you from tending to the voice of longing?
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