Today’s blog asks more questions than offers answers……so, let’s talk about faith baby!
Jesus says something really scary in today’s gospel reading. (Matthew 9: 27-31). When approached by two blind men who asked for Jesus’ healing, he asks them, “Do you believe that I can do this?” They respond, “Yes.” Then here were Jesus’ scary words, “Let it be done for you according to your faith.” Oh oh. My first thought was, “What if their faith is imperfect? What if they waver for just a moment? Does that mean they will only receive a partial healing?” YUK! I sure wouldn’t want to be the poor guy who doubted for just a second and only partly got my sight back. Again, YUK!
Scarier Pop-Culture “laws”
If you have seen any of the materials out there on the so-called “law of attraction” or “the secret” or have read books or attended seminars by certain authors, this is their very position. We only receive that which we have 100% belief in. In other words, what we have in life is 100% reflective of how we think and believe and if we don’t have “what we want” it is because we didn’t have enough belief or because we thought the wrong thoughts. I totally agree that our thoughts, our beliefs, our perceptions and perspectives are somehow reflective of our lives. However, even as a recoverying perfectionist who likes to carry the blame for everything good or bad in my life, it feels like an enormous burden to have to carry ALL the responsibility for our life circumstances. I consider myself to be a woman of significant faith and yet, I do not have the $1million house on the lake neither do I have the red Volvo station wagon (or 1963 split window hardtop Corvette) of my dreams, and I’m certainly not pulling in six figures. And if I look back on all the things I’ve had “faith” about and seen them fall short of my desires and had no one to blame but myself for these “failures,” I just might end up suicidal!
I certainly don’t know everything…but I can’t believe that God is really that cruel. If in that last moment before Jesus laid his hand on him, the blind man had just a flicker of doubt (because he is human for God’s sake!), I can’t imagine that God would deprive him of the complete healing that he desired and believed that Jesus could accomplish. There has to be some sort of allowance for our humanness….because let’s face it, we are a doubtful people. So here is what I think….that God’s intention and God’s knowledge of what is in our highest good overrides “the law of attraction,” “The secret,” and our wavering faith.
So, our job then is to strive to have faith, and to recognize that in our humanness, we are imperfect and our faith will waver from time to time. And it is here that we can pray for God to increase our faith as we offer these words, “Lord, I am not worthy to receive you, but only say the word and I shall be healed.” AND…..”Let it be done to me according to your word.” Because at the end of the day, God knows best and God does best and sometimes it is not in our highest good to have the $million house on the lake and it might be in our highest good to be completely cured of our blindness…regardless of our imperfect faith.
What role does faith play in your own life?
Where do you struggle with faith?
How can you invite God to help you with your faith?
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