Today’s blog reminds us that sometimes we just have to take a leap….even when we do not yet know the exact plan or the outcome. And in taking this leap, we need to be willing to fail (or perhaps worse…succeed!). GULP!
On the Chopping Block
As I share this blog today, I feel a little like the Thanksgiving Day turkey, laying on the chopping block, getting ready to have his head lopped off so that his body can be served up on a platter for all the world to consume. GULP! On the professional front, this has been a month of lower income, high anxiety, boredom, lack of direction or motivation and restlessness. After a weekend of just feeling sorry for myself, the universe slapped me upside the head and yelled at me, “Sh…t or get off the pot already!!!” ARGH!!!!! So, yesterday, without a clear plan or direction, I got off the pot. I jumped off the bridge and dove into what my mother, not so affectionately, refers to as “The Church of Lauri.” (I love you mom!)
Tearing Down to Rebuild
So, yesterday I began the process of tearing down my existing website in order to build something new. (cruise around the site a bit and you’ll get a glimpse into some of the changes) Specifically, it seems it was time to put “it” out there. The “it” I am referring to is myself, along with a team of magnificent people, stepping into the call to offer an alternative and complementary form of worship, along with expanded offerings of spiritual (not religious) formation for adults, couples and children. I know, it sounds kinda like “church,” and that is the part that freaks me (and my mother 😉 ) out!
Jumping off the Bridge
So the Universe slapped me upside the head and urged me to put it out there…..even though I still don’t know exactly what it will look like and I have no idea the outcome. The “outcome,” in fact, is the part that freaks me out the most. What if it fails? Or perhaps worse, what if it is a HUGE success? Then my brain goes off on all kinds of worrisome tangents playing every possible scenario out in my mind. No wonder I’ve been feeling anxious. The bottom line is that it is time to put it out there, time to get off the pot and time to risk miserable failure or magnificent success because at the end of the day….I am surely not in charge of any of this! All I can do is what I have tried to do over the past 20 or so years…..take time to listen to God, try to hear what God is telling me, believe what God is telling me….then act. This is certainly one of those situations where I have done and continue to do this. So….without further ado:
Contemplative Worship and Spiritual (not religious) Formation
Sometime in January of 2012 (probably on the Feast of Epiphany), Authentic Freedom Ministries will be launching our first venture into Sunday Worship. We are calling it alternative and complementary because it is not like what you have seen before in the tradition of Western worship and because it can be used as a stand-alone experience or in conjunction with your existing worship practices. We are calling it contemplative because the focus will be on your own personal, intimate, unique experience of the Divine as discovered and cultivated in the silence of your own heart. If you come, you will be empowered to take time to discover and develop a relationship with the voice of truth that resides within and you will be given tools to begin to discern that voice from the voice of the ego/false-self. And you will be supported in heeding that voice. It is worship because there will be songs of praise and mission as well as time to read and reflect on scripture. The only doctrine will be that which you discern in your own heart in your intimate connection with the Divine….measured and guided by compassion, justice and love. We will leave the other questions of doctrine for the religious institutions to argue over. Formation will be spiritual rather than religious…in other words, tools will be introduced, utilized and explored which empower you (and your partner and your children) to remember that love is your original and natural state and tools that will clear the way for you to live that love in the world. In other words – answering the questions:
- Who am I?
- Whose am I?
- What are my gifts and how am I being called to use them?
Are You Happy Now?
So Universe, are you happy now? I put it out there. I stepped off the path and leaped off the bridge. Without knowledge of the exact plan and with no vision of the outcome….I put it out there. Now it is your job to figure out the rest!!!!!
What are the situations in your life where you have had to step in with no discernable plan or vision of the outcome?
How are you at risking failure?
How are you at risking success?
What tools do you use to reason, discern and exercise Divine guidance/your own truth in this life?
Authentic Freedom Ministries